Everything felt lined up. Once I graduated, I would find a teaching job and live happily ever after. But one day, I woke up and started questioning why I decided to teach. Was it because I really wanted to do it or because that was a profession I grew up around, so I followed a known path? I started thinking about the other possibilities. What if I could do something else? What if I can explore, genuinely get to know myself, dare to dream, and then follow that inner calling? It was so exciting but terrifying at the same time. I was young, and all the doors seemed open, but I felt lost. The path I thought I would walk on crumbled upon my feet, and now what?
I took a year off from uni and moved to Scotland with my then-boyfriend (now husband), where I fell in love with its diverse landscapes, from the rugged mountaintops to dense woodlands and glittering lakes. After a year, I came home to finish my master's studies, but I couldn't silence the inner voice calling me to explore new places. So we spent another year and a half in Scotland; I studied for one semester in Slovenia; we walked from French borders through Spain to Santiago de Compostela as our honeymoon; we lived and traveled in New Zealand and moved to Canada in 2017. It might sound like a perfect life, but it was challenging. I feel comfort in known and planned situations, and stepping outside brought massive anxiety. Founding myself in many new situations, an uncertain future and not learning to navigate myself at that moments often led to breakdowns. But slowly, one step at a time, I'm getting used to this; I'm unlearning the urge to figure out everything right away, leaving a space for new, and looking forward to what surprise comes next. I learned to split my big dreams into small pieces and then work on each part at a time. It requires a lot of patience and trust. I used to lack both, but every move from one step to another taught me both. What if I can do this? What if I can move just an inch more?
And that is how Mountain Mornings was created.
Mountain Morning has always been about "What if."
What if I can draw my logo by myself?
What if I start sharing my illustrations on Instagram?
What if I do a craft market?
What if I open an Etsy shop?
What if I create my website?
What if....the sky is the limit.
One time, someone asked me what is my biggest fear. I answered that I fear most going through a day without passion and joy. That fear hasn't changed. I might not know what my future will look like, but I'm trying to live in the present as much as possible and look forward to what the future brings to me.